I am burnt out... again. (Doesn't take long, I reckon.) I am sick of studying... sick of memorizing (I HATE memorizing), sick of regurgitating useless ultrasound parameters that I'm never going to use. Am I not smart enough? Am I studying the wrong way? The wrong material? When I'm in the clinic, I feel competent, efficient, alive. Well, my practice exams don't think so.
Am I deluding myself into thinking I'm a good physical therapist when I actually suck? Will I EVER be ready for the licensure exam, or am I doomed to fail yet another (this time very expensive) practice exam? Am I doomed to work as a PTA for the rest of my life?? Not that there's anything wrong with being a PTA, but when I've dedicated the last 3 years of my life to attaining a Doctor of Physical Therapy degree, somehow being a PTA doesn't seem like enough... I want to start my career, take my professional life off the shelf... I was supposed to be working towards my OCS by now, dammit!
All of my friends and classmate/colleagues have moved forward... passed their exams, gotten jobs, etc. I'm stuck in the world of prn PTA work. I'm losing my eval skills every frickin day. I am wasting my life not doing what I'm supposed to be doing... or maybe it's not, after all? Only time will tell... meanwhile, my $1300/mo student loan bills are knocking at the door...
Ok, obviously, I'm frustrated. My life doesn't really suck. (just this part, currently.) I'm not generally a whiny little bitch. But seriously, this is getting old.
1 comment:
I got your comment on my blog (thanks for reading btw!)
I can very much empathize with your post and think that "hey you" song is pretty awesome (never heard it before)
As far as the memorizing of crap that you(and I) aren't at all interested in, it does stink... but just suck it up and get it out the way, haha... if it were only that easy
In my first go-round I simply did not study enough... at all... at this point my study strategy focuses on actually reading the freaking review book, the o'sullivan/schmitz book (the big red "physical rehab" one)... at least glancing it over
To be honest the boards are secondary to me since in NY we can work with a 6 month permit which can be renewed a few times... but I really wanna get the boards out of the way
I think everyone has to find their own way to deal with the boards... and it does stink because from what I have heard and my experience with the exam now there are def. times when the "right" answer is not what you would do in real life or a "wrong" choice may be the best course of action based on your own experiences...
Wish I could be more helpful, but unfortunately they are what they are, so just know that rule of 9 and when to use enzymatic debridement or even which anodes/cathodes go with which meds, yay, superfun happy hour
Best o luck
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